“Drunken Walk” by Victoria Carter

Deeper and deeper we sink

into the lust of us.

Are we just living

or merely surviving?

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Past this perception we call reality.

Hold onto it,

then drift into imagination.

 

Tell me why the moon hits your face,

and reminds me of that place

of neither peace nor virtue, but

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Y and reality.

 

Letting me know that there’s

more to life than the bliss

of lonesome nights.

 

Walk in the direction of the unknown

for the earth is my home.

The trees whisper in my ear

they tell me, it’s so clear.

 

Birds from above

Shadow me, unloved.

The rocks bellow

they know it’s frigid.

 

The alcohol it numbs,

and that feeling it comes.

Don’t live in my head,

Can’t see that it’s dead.

 

Look to the sky, can’t say goodbye.

Tell yourself it’s okay

though you know you can’t stay.

“Anxiety” by Victoria Carter

Dear anxiety,

I once knew you as innocence creeping up my spine. I saw you as a deranged smile upon this face. Now I know you are the poison filling my veins, the dark side of peace, and the one thing that keeps me from believing. But I know you aren’t there, because you only exist in my faded mind.

 

Dear anxiety,

Go away. I hate that you keep me breathing. I hate that you keep me from believing. But I know you’re there, because I see you when I look in the mirror. You feed off my emotions, and cling to my fear. So…

 

Dear anxiety,

Let me live my life. I don’t need you guiding me. I only need you behind me. Don’t look me in the eye. Don’t feed me your lies.

 

Dear anxiety,

I’m gonna get well.