michelle-dean – Hedge Apple

“Hurricane” By Michelle Dean

One step closer just to get pushed further away
Why can’t he see what this is doing to me?
I’ve tried to stay strong day after day

The faith I had slowly faded
Nothing is left inside
I’ve been patient; oh God knows how I’ve waited

Nothing changes… it all remains the same
I know what I’ve put into this
But I’ll take the blame

He doesn’t want me close
That kills me inside
I said I’ll leave and BOOM he froze

He doesn’t want me close, he doesn’t want me far
I feel tossed around
How much more can I take with already being scarred

Maybe I really am that bad
Undeserving of love
Not worthy of having the heart of this man

I’ll leave him alone now
It seems better that way
Loneliness always finds a path somehow

Michelle Dean

One Last Cry

It’s painful I cannot lie
I tried so hard
Now it’s time for one last cry

I can’t hold on to the why
I must move on
This is my one last cry

Memories of us when everything was fine
I’m erasing it all
Because this is my one last cry

I’ll listen to the music we shared one last time
It will hurt
But I must have this one last cry

You picked me up so high
Only to let me fall
Now I’ll have my one last cry

You said goodbye
And today I’ll accept it
Right after this one last cry

Michelle Dean

Wyatt

A spirit so free without a care in the world
Oblivious to the dangers in life
He feels safe in a stranger’s lap laying curled

Oh his innocence is so beautiful
If only it would last a lifetime
A young unscathed precious little soul

The love in his heart he expresses with words
Never knowing rejection he remains vulnerable
His voice so tiny yet so easily heard

Maybe we are the ones who are blind
We teach them even though we need taught
Oh how much we can learn from a child’s heart and his mind

Michelle Dean

Clarity

A life together hand in hand,
shattered by the dishonest man.

Sacred vows disregarded,
selfishness of one leaves the other brokenhearted.

The truth she found set them free,
free from the lies he told and the reality she was too blind to see.

Robbed of perfect harmony,
jaded by an immoral creature who’s merely charming.

The heart he breaks will eventually heal,
someday a new love will erase the pain he made her feel.

She wipes her tears away and waves goodbye,
never again will this noxious man make her cry.

Deep in her heart the memories remain,
in time bitterness fades and forgiveness is obtained.

The faintest sound in the night keeps him awake,
conscience reminder of his mistakes.

She sleeps peacefully no longer wide awake,
God will forever determine her fate.

Love can be bitter or sweet,
for what you sow you shall reap.