“Little Partner” by Matt Longerbeam

In the early afternoon
if I am home
most often,
I’m on the front porch.
I sit there and I hope
that he will walk by.
Often he does,
on his way to work,
and I cherish those few moments.
Even though
he won’t talk to me,
he no longer knows
the strange old guy sitting there.
He only knows what he’s been told.
Years ago, he knew me well.
I took him everywhere I went,
my little partner,
and he looked up to me then
with such love in his little eyes.
Now I watch him passing
and I wonder,
can he feel the love I hold
for him,
or the pride that I have
in him?

The distance is so very small, but
we are separated by the years.
He goes by and my eyes follow
and as he gets farther down the road
he becomes smaller and smaller
in my watery eyes,
shrinking,
as did his knowledge of me
and his fondness for me
as the time passed.
Then he is gone from my sight
and I whisper to myself
I love you
son.

-22 April 2016

“The Difference” By Rebecca Leatherman

My dad says I’m a clumsy driver. I swerve, zig-zag, misdirect my focus.
Can’t concentrate on the yellow line, on the white line, the in between.
Yes, I’m a terrible driver, but I don’t do any better on foot.
I trip, I fall, I get up, repeat.

He glides, moves side-to-side gently, tenderly.
He weaves in and out of traffic.
Jams that I stumble through he floats through unfazed.

“Get yourself together” he says.
“Get me a drink” I slur.

“I’m done” he insists.
“Please, I’ll change” I plea.

The whiskey passes my lips to my tongue.
Past my tongue to my throat.
Down my throat into my stomach.
The acid is eating away at the lining.
I can feel the flames licking my insides.
Ignite. Scorch. Blaze.

The water rocks back and forth against the pearly bowl.
I stare into the white abyss willing the raw burn in my stomach to relax.

“Relax” he whispers.
“I’m sorry” I cry.

I’m a drunken mess, alone and dying.

“But you’re not alone” he promises.

I am though, because he can’t keep me.
He won’t keep me.
The clouds he rides on don’t hold the thunder I possess.
He carries sunshine and deep breaths of air.
My lightning strikes, unpredictable.
The cracks deafening.

“Get yourself together” he says.

But I can’t because I’m a drunken mess,
Lovely and unattainable.

“Short Suite” By Heather Wallen

I love you like hymnals and rainstorms
like forgive and let live
like poison pills
giving me the chills
like aftershocks
and forget me knots
loving me still
baby you and me
go together like
disco and lemonade
and we remind me a bit of
horseshoes and hand grenades
because almost always counts

“A Summer by the Sea” by Rebecca Strunk

Foot to sand, I remember
those days of long nights
and glorious days, filled with memories.
Of a person on the turf
swept to me, by the Caspian Sea.

To fill my world with new adventures.
Each getting better by every turn
hand to hand, foot to sand,
hopping over broken clam shells,
other little things we could explore, but don’t.

Watching the sun descend the horizon
we dive, the colors of the coral
exploding in our lives down here.
Above the glistening wonders
our lives continue up there,
now above us in the stars.

He pulls me against the current,
closer, closer, until I’m there.
The secret of him, told in no words,
but that dive told me everything.

“Send My Regards to the Wind” by Portia Dobrzanski

The day had been worn down and left in pieces. Rain drops hurry down the window without any hesitation. I long to feel even the smallest ray strike my cheek, but I know all warmth has evaded me. A subtle residue is all that’s left of my better days. For just a minute, I swear I could remember what it was like to bask in the light with those I love most. I swear I almost could recall what it felt like to be refreshed by a cold breeze, without it forcing the hairs up from under my skin. My emotions have bound themselves to Earth’s erratic phases. With every gust of wind my heart lurches. With every icy drop my eyes pour out their secrets. I long to break free from this dreadful relationship. Oh, how I miss those better days.

Through the glass
The clouds — their impending cry
A dance I cannot escape

The wind throws me back and forth restlessly, but the tall trees remain still. Her bulging roots reveal past battles, a set of scars that make up her foundation. The branches that have fallen become a victim of Earth’s mighty breath as they are thrust against the base of the tree. Her rings tell stories of the many years she’s stood strong and her saplings promise to preserve her legacy. Come fall, the leaves will abandon the tree, leaving their mother barren and exposed. I think of the times when I, too, have changed. Who else had to endure the pain of my development? In that moment, I realized that the steps of growth I view as improvements may feel like a series of abrupt hurricanes to those that surround me. Change is inevitable, but growth is reserved solely for those who are willing to accept disaster as payment for their progression.

Branches sway
The one who has seen all
Warns only those who listen

I gaze into the pond, but the ripples hide its true contents. Bubbles of air rise and fall, as if the pond is breathing for its inhabitants. The surface appears still, but I know that beneath it, water flows brutally against the rocks and sand. The exterior glass reflects an image that I am reluctant to analyze. A sudden ray of light breaks through the top layer and distracts me from my vulnerability. It’s an entire world, completely hidden from all of nature. Those who stumble upon it are few and their discovery is always made without intention. I think of the little I have seen and how much I have left to experience. Until this day, an entire community of life has been living quietly without any familiarity from myself. Whether an overcrowded city or a minute blade of grass, each fragment of earth is a magnificent universe that I couldn’t possibly recognize.

Under my thumb
Life persists undisclosed
A small fish buried in blue satin

“Hurricane” By Michelle Dean

One step closer just to get pushed further away
Why can’t he see what this is doing to me?
I’ve tried to stay strong day after day

The faith I had slowly faded
Nothing is left inside
I’ve been patient; oh God knows how I’ve waited

Nothing changes… it all remains the same
I know what I’ve put into this
But I’ll take the blame

He doesn’t want me close
That kills me inside
I said I’ll leave and BOOM he froze

He doesn’t want me close, he doesn’t want me far
I feel tossed around
How much more can I take with already being scarred

Maybe I really am that bad
Undeserving of love
Not worthy of having the heart of this man

I’ll leave him alone now
It seems better that way
Loneliness always finds a path somehow