Who is Grey? by Rachael Marion
Rachael Marion
Who is Grey?
Getting into the office building was the easy part. Even finding the file that she was looking for gave the woman no trouble. The problems were coming from the contents of the file itself. There was no organization whatsoever within the fat manila sleeve. So, though it was something that she hated to do, she slid the contents from the folder and spread the papers across the desk. The woman took a few seconds to memorize its order, just in case, before she began her rummaging. Quickly, while still being as careful as possible, she began skimming though the various documents and notes, in search of the incriminating document. She had been informed that the subject matter of this particular document was falsified and wanted to see for herself. If it was, she would have no other choice but to make it disappear. I may have done some bad things in my past, but I am not about to get blamed for something I did not do.
“Who is Grey?”
Her eyes flitted across the question paper clipped to the top of a stack of about nine or ten sheets. The question had been hand-written, underlined, and circled. It caused her to pause in her search for the erroneous document. Quickly, she noted the time from the clock on the desk. She had a few seconds to spare for that thought. The name “Grey” was second nature to her, but she had never realized that the main agent assigned to her case had not made that connection yet. Adrianna “Addy” Grey was her alter ego. She was basically a cover ID. After her brief time in Witness Protection, she learned that a cover identity was nothing without a history behind it that could be researched and verified. After all, the reason she was no longer in Witness Protection was because the man she was hiding from had found her while she was in the program. So, after leaving the program, she created Addy. Addy had school records, legal records, even a job history and an active bank account that began when the “girl” would have been old enough to work. For a long time, she had fooled those who were in pursuit of her, partially because of her extensive cover history, but also because of the things Addy did that she never would have in her own name.
Old news, she thought, turning her attention back onto the paper. The woman found the nature of the question to be unusual in the agent’s file. She almost wanted to write the answer for him. Addy is whoever I needed her to be. Up until recently, that is. The name was still golden in some circles, but it had been on the grid long enough. A good alias only remains that way when you hang it up for a little while. That, however, was not the biggest problem with the name “Addy Grey.” Once again, her pursuer had discovered that this was simply a mask she had been hiding behind. He had found her out. Being Grey was no longer protecting her. But the agent had been pursuing her almost as long as this man had been. How had he not pieced the true identity of Addy Grey together by now?
Against her will, she recalled the man she had been running from for so long. His face, so like hers, except in the eyes. She had never understood what she had done to offend him, but from the moment she breathed he had hated her. He was at an advantage, really, being several years older than her, but she felt her ability to stay invisible gave her a bit of an edge. It was important. Again, she forced herself to stay on task, refusing to think about that part of her life.
Let’s find that document… she thought, glancing at the clock again. Time to get back to work.
The pages beneath the question were a hodgepodge of records, typed-text, and hand-written files. They began hand-written, with a loose connection between her and Grey. The agent had considered the possibility that Grey was an asset or a friend, but recognized the fleeting appearances of the name and wondered if she was even a real person. Smart man… The woman was impressed that she had been able to fool someone so familiar with her file for so long. There were three official records. Two were for government hacking and the third was for some nonsense involving a bank account. That third file gave the woman some pause. She had never been one to care for an excess of money, though for a brief time she did a bit of laundering for an associate. It was not something she cared to do, feeling it condoned morally shady behavior, but she had, at the time, owed that particular person a favor. After she had taken care of the favor, she resolved never to deal in money or banking again. It was too much trouble, and not at all what she was interested in doing with her time. So to see this record stating she, as Grey, had robbed a bank caused her some confusion. This was not what she was looking for, but it was also a false document. Someone was setting her up on all fronts, not just under her own name. She grabbed the file from the set of papers and rolled it up into her sleeve. She still had to find the file she came in for initially.
Almost as an afterthought she glanced up once more at the collapsible clock sitting on the agent’s desk. She had three minutes to get what she needed and to get out. She cursed in her head once again about the disorganization in the file, but her fingers sifted through the various documents until she saw what she was looking for. Triumphantly, she held up the document, checking it over to be sure that it was exactly what she was looking for. It was. She rolled the paper and slid it up her sleeve with the other document and then gathered the rest of the file contents to return them to the manila folder. Hastily but carefully—she had wasted any extra time reserved for excess care by reviewing the Grey file. The folder was placed back into the file cabinet and she was on top of the desk, shimmying through the ceiling tile just in time.
Untitled: The sun teaches warmth… by Benjamin Fisher
Benjamin Fisher
Untitled: The sun teaches warmth…
The sun teaches warmth and light and
heaven, but
you can’t be sure you’re a grateful
student—prudent given Ockham’s razor
cuts so blunt agains the grain unsure of
unsewn oats. Once stained nothing comes
clean, obscene blunders/faux pas wonders
like passed out mother holding square bottles instead
of babies.
What thoughts condemn, slits from hip
to hem—you know it’s wrong, but
like train crashes
you won’t
Look away.
In this case, hate the sinner not
the sin.
“Rabounni?” The low woman said.
No.
He is not here, when he is needed
most.
How can an ape teach a man tabled
manners? Play the parlor tricks and hope
they are
enough.
Church by Audra Haddock-Martenot
Untitled: Seeing things… by Benjamin Fisher
Benjamin Fisher
Untitled: Seeing things…
Seeing things reminds us of being things—special
roles for special holes in the lives of small men; the question—
do they know what men are?—Christmas,
out for a cigarette, boy tugging at his sleeve,
“Please don’t leave, please.”
Never heard such a happy boyd beg shuddering
at memories of a heavy shoulder silhouette
tiptoeing in steel toe boots—
Embarrassment is crying in a basement over too
many drinks thinking about how to shave and
all the cuts endured that girls pointed at, leaning
against lockers and what you’d say to the s[u]n
so bright you could no longer hide in glass corners—
Sometimes love is outrage over dirty catheters and
urethra infections, a failed reclamation of dignity
for the hickory that withered to dust in a
woman’s hands—And those little boys with
saucer eyes will ask the questions, will ask for
stories and hang onto cliffs made of words
hoping the ropes you fashion will hold them like
hammocks or wombs and you’ll remember a
Darwinian line hoping you are a knuckle dragger
forever.
–“Not to go on all-fours; that is the law.
Are we not men?”
Snow Covered Fields by Sherry Frey
The Promise by Dareian Griffith
Dareian Griffith
The Promise
Shameful stares seek her out,
cascade her mind; dreadful doubt.
Clutching strong, her internal life,
the promise: it will be alright.
This hard path ahead she knows,
yet leaving her bed her smile glows.
And through it all, she’ll persevere,
slowly but surely, life’s lesson becoming clear.
The words she hears, it’s worth the while,
but until we meet… dreaming of your precious smile.
The Truth by David Winger
David Winger
The Truth
Chan sat atop the mountain meditating. The clouds, plants, animals, soldiers and rebels all moved around him as he breathed in and breathed out. As he came out of his meditation, he thought how it was nice to take a break from the constant thinking and willfulness his mind, one of man’s greatest strengths and greatest weaknesses as well. He looked at the valley below and saw everything playing its role in the game of existence. Some seemed wonderful, others appeared horrific; all necessary and coexisting. Monks often acted as if removed from this cycle, existing only to contemplate, but Chan knew otherwise. One could think himself in circles and put himself in a kind of philosophical paralysis. Chan had experienced this when he was younger, but now he knew he had a part to play. Whether he enjoyed or agreed with it didn’t matter. He would simply tell the truth; no more, no less.
That was his part and it was enough. He could no longer hide in the forest or the monastery; once he had walked amongst the people and seen their suffering, he knew he was part of this war with or without his consent. Nothing exists in isolation and when it rains you either hide or get wet. Chan could no longer hide.
As he contemplated, he saw a platoon of the self-appointed Emperor’s soldiers coming up the mountain as if on cue. He sat calmly.
A young man walked ahead of the rest. The young and inexperienced were often sent ahead to seek or draw out the enemy so the rest of the platoon was not surprised or ambushed. The young man yelled for his Commander upon seeing Chan.
The Commander walked towards him, more than confident and with a look of impatience.
“Where have the rebels gone, Monk? I know they passed this way. I have been tracking them. The stupid peasants all but drew me a map,” said the Commander.
“I would rather not say. What you seek will lead only to your death and to that of your men. Please turn back.”
“Ha, I knew you would say some cowardly nonsense.” The Commander pulled out his sword and held it at Chan’s throat.
“Either tell me what I seek or you will die after I will burn down your precious monastery and the nearby village. I have no time or desire for advice or philosophy.”
“That path,” Chan said, pointing. “The steep one, but I warn you it will be your death.”
“Your words are wasted, and know if you have mislead me I shall return and reap suffering you never thought possible,” said the Commander with fire in his eyes.
“I have spoken true; it is against my creed to do otherwise,” Chan replied.
“I know. That’s why I love finding one of your “creed” to question. Most are smart enough to hide,” the Commander boasted, smiling to the junior Officer beside him.
“And others are smart enough to listen. Do what you must,” Chan said indifferently.
The Commander turned and ordered his troops to go down the steep, rocky path. They sheathed their weapons to do so, their armor making the climb difficult. Once they got half way down, a group of rebels ambushed them. Dug in, waiting and well hidden, they surrounded and killed the better equipped soldiers. By the time most of the soldiers had gotten decent footing and drew their weapons they had fallen victim to the rebels’ stream of arrows.
Chan heard the sounds of men killing and dying, then he heard the song of a bird. They mixed together and sounded both horrific and beautiful. This is life, he reflected: horrific and beautiful. Guilt swept over him without his consent as he heard the Commander beg for his life in vain, even though the man had threatened to kill him only moments ago. He reminded himself he had been true to his vows and told the truth, even though he had omitted an important detail.
Chan looked at a beautiful cloud passing by, and felt a pain in his stomach. It was not due to the death occurring nearby or the role he had played in it, but to hunger. He had been on this mountain all day and hadn’t eaten. He walked back to the monastery debating his role in all of this, as if turning the same subject over in his head for the thousandth time would change it or bring a new revelation. He came to the same conclusion he always did; tyrants oppress, rebels rebel and he would tell the truth.
Siren by Sara Martens
Sara Martens
Siren
Ahaunting melody echoes within his mind, ensnaring the witless fool. She emerges from the shadows: a woman of impossible beauty, the epitome of desire. The curves of her body sway enticingly as she approaches. Such eager prey. Pathetic. With distain, she watches his body collapse to the alley street. Her dagger embedded in his chest, her immortal heart is alive once more, racing from the thrill of a man’s demise.
Liege by Michael Johnson
Michael Johnson
Liege
Drowned in ash and choked by smoke
And silence hears the measure
A deathly hymn on tattered cloths
And a city left to wither.
Ragged wings of scarlet red
And the prideful stayed their absence
Said the cries of the suffered dead
And the leader boast his status.
Crack the stone and salt the fields
And burn down the pyre.
Shattered bones on a broken throne
And the king they crowned a liar.