“September Call Up” by Charles Rockwell

It all began to sink in once I got on the bus to the ballpark. The feeling was bittersweet. I was going to be making my Major League debut against the team that drafted me three years earlier and that I had rooted for as a child with my father. A couple of years after being drafted, I became “the player to be named later.” I had to start in a whole new system. It would be unlikely that I ever would play for my favorite team. The players and coaches were carrying on during the ride, but the memories of my path to the big leagues are running through my head like a movie.

I had been raised a Baltimore fan. My father would take me to games on a regular basis. He would tell me that, one day, I would be playing on that field. “You have a gift, and it is my dream for you achieve greatness.” I always thought he was giving me the talk that all fathers give their children. When I got older, my abilities to play baseball became more apparent. I would play on all-star teams. My parents would sacrifice so much to keep me playing baseball. While he never said it, I am pretty sure my father lost a job when I was eleven because he wanted me to be a baseball player. He told my mom it was because the company was downsizing, but I heard him out in the garage one night with his buddies talking about how his boss was going to make him work when he was supposed to drive me and my traveling team four hours across the state for the little league state championship tournament.

There were times I would begin to hate baseball. It was not really the game, but the pressure that came with the tournaments. We had to win but, when you are a child, baseball is supposed to be fun, not about championships.

A few years later, I would play in high school, and baseball became fun again. When I was an athlete in high school, it gave me status with my classmates. I wore my varsity jacket around my high school like a badge of honor. It was a big deal being named to the varsity team as a freshman. I had four years to improve before I could either move on to college or enter the first year player draft in Major League baseball. After high school, I chose to enter the baseball draft. When I was selected by Baltimore, my father was so proud and happy, he had tears in his eyes. Not only had his dream of me playing baseball professionally come true, but I was drafted by the team we had cheered for since I was a kid.

For the next few years, I played in the Baltimore farm system. I loved the game, but life on the road is hard. My parents would travel to some of my games, and I was always excited to play in front of them.

One day in August, I was finally introduced to the business side of baseball. The team I had rooted for as a child had traded me to Minneapolis. This was heart-wrenching. I wanted to be the hometown hero, and play my entire career in Baltimore. I wanted my father in his retirement to sit behind the dugout every home game. My dream had been taken away.

I continued to progress through the Minneapolis farm system. When I made it to AAA ball, I knew eventually that I would make it to Major League ball, even if it was only for a short time.

A few months later, I was on a bus heading to the ballpark for my Major League debut. As the bus pulled up, the ballpark seemed larger than when I was a kid. I entered the tunnel to the locker room, and the hair on my arms began to stand up on end. Today gave me the chance I had worked so hard to obtain.

When I found my locker, I sat down and looked around at all the other players. I knew some of them from spring training. Many of them I recognized from watching baseball on TV. I was finally one of them, even if it was for a September call up when teams expanded their rosters. My uniform was clean and hanging in my locker. It looked pristine. I pulled my jersey off the hanger and looked at the back. There it was in big bold letters “REYNOLDS.” My name on a Major League jersey. It was brand new and had never been worn by anybody else. Those eight letters had been stitched on the jersey sometime this morning, because I did not know I was coming to Baltimore until 8:30 last night. My first call was to my dad. I told him it was finally going to happen and I would be in Baltimore in a few hours. His voice sounded different. He was all choked up with emotion. He told me he would be there for my debut, and so would my Mother.

After I put my uniform on, I walked out of the tunnel to the dugout. The manager had placed his lineup card up early and I was astonished to see I would be the designated hitter for today’s game. I knew then I had to warm up. Walking out on to the field the grass, I noticed it was perfectly manicured. The infield dirt was as smooth as a pool table. “This is how baseball should be played,” I thought to myself. The large ballpark that surrounded the field made me feel very small.

When I got to the cage for batting practice, it did not go as well as planned. Most of the balls I hit rolled in the infield back to where the second baseman would be. Double play balls are the kiss of death in the big leagues. It had to be nerves. I rarely ground into a double play in the minor leagues. I had to get out of this rut quick.

“Don’t make me regret the lineup card I wrote this morning,” I heard from the dugout. I looked over to see the manager Bruce Johnson checking out my swing.

“I am going to fix this before the game starts,” I replied. It was now crunch time; this problem had to go away.

The hitting coach approached, and brought me to the hitting tunnels under the stadium to fix my nerves. This was exciting and disappointing at the same time. Having my swing worked on by a guy who hit over .350 four years in a row was a dream come true. Having my Major League career depend on him fixing the problem made me even more nervous.

When we were done, I went back to the dugout to see if my parents had arrived. I had reserved them some tickets behind the dugout. My parents were here. Dad was wearing a Minneapolis Jersey. I never thought that would happen, especially in the stadium we visited so many times before. “Nice shirt,” I told him. “I will get you a dirty one with our name on it in about four hours.” They both seemed excited but it was too loud to talk anymore.

Once the game started, my team was going to bat first. I was sixth in the lineup so the likelihood of me making a plate appearance during the first inning was slim. We scored three runs in the first inning when the short stop hitting fifth drilled a three run homer while I was in the on deck circle. Standing in the batter’s box, the outfield wall seemed a hundred miles away. The pitcher, another September call up, was visibly nervous. He had given up more runs than he had made outs. This was my opportunity to make first at-bat one for the record books. I hit his third pitch down the first base line. The ball shot around the outfield walls and corners like it was in a pinball machine. I hustled past second base and slid into third to make my first at-bat a triple. I got up and looked at my uniform. It was filthy like it should be. A clean uniform meant I had not played as hard as I should. The next batter struck out swinging, and that ended the inning, sending me back to the dugout.

“Nice hit,” I heard as I was walking down into the dugout. Bruce Johnson was looking over at me. “Next time, hit it over the wall.” I sat in the dugout for what seemed like an eternity while the position players took to the field.

Finally, in the top of the fourth inning, my next opportunity to hit happened. Down 0-2, I fouled off what seemed like thirty pitches before lining one to the base of the wall in left center. It was a stand up double. I thought these Major League pitchers were going to be more challenging. On a wild pitch, I advanced to third, and then scored on a sac fly.

In the sixth inning, I hit a solo home run that just squeaked over the outfield wall. I ran around the bases and then walked to the dugout. I waved my hat to my parents walking down the dugout steps. Sitting in the dugout, it finally dawned on me “I am a single away from hitting for the cycle.” This is a huge feat that most players never achieve, let alone in a Major League debut. I couldn’t wait to get back in the batter’s box.

I was three for three for the game when I stepped up to the plate. I was locked in. I just needed to slap one past the infield and leg it out to first to put my name in the history books. I was going to get a hit, I was certain of it. The pitcher stood on the rubber and set to make his first pitch. I tightened my grip on the bat. This was the moment of truth. I watched the ball leave his left hand. It was a fast ball, but it was heading right for me. I turned and it hit me square in the back.

“Not on my watch,” yelled the pitcher.

“You’re out of here!” screamed the home plate umpire, and immediately ejected the pitcher from the game. I wanted to charge the mound more than anything else in the world. He took away my chance to make history. I slowly walked to first, glaring at him.

The team trainer came out to check on me to see if I needed to come out of the game. I told him I was fine and wanted to stay in. There was still a chance, albeit slim, that I could get one more plate appearance.

We came into the ninth inning up three runs, and I was six spots in the lineup away from hitting. Their pitcher had a 1-2-3 inning. My chance at hitting for the cycle had slipped away. Our closer had only blown one save all season, and he had a three run cushion. The game was essentially over. Suddenly, for the second time this season, he blew a save, and we were going into extra innings. My dream was returning to me.
The two batters in front of me had made it on base. I stood in the batter’s box wanting a hit more than anything else in the world. After battling to a three-two pitch count, I slapped one into right field and ran as hard as I could to first base. The two baserunners made it home and my hit put us ahead by two runs. My hit caused the opposing pitcher to be replaced with one from the bullpen. I made it to second on a wild pitch but the new pitcher struck out the next three batters, ending the inning. When the top of the tenth was over, I walked back to the dugout, proud that I had hit for the cycle and put the team up by two runs. The entire team gave me the silent treatment.

Mark Williams, our catcher, looked at me and said, “stop gloating. It doesn’t count if you take more than nine innings to get the hits.”

Was he serious? He sounded serious, and I felt a ball in my stomach. Then the entire team turned towards me, smiling. They were putting me on. I had hit for the cycle. Just wait until tomorrow I told them. I should get better against Major League pitching.

“Ed’s Car” by Tara Peck

Ed’s car, an ancient, rust-brown Corolla, sped uneasily down the road. The cacophony of sad noises coming from the engine sounded like it was falling apart; he imagined pieces of it flying off, leaving a bread trail of metal behind him. The thought was unnerving
The inside of the car was equally as unpleasant. A trash heap of McDonald’s paper bags, sweet tea cups, receipts, and discarded candy bar wrappers overflowed from the back seat to the front, even filling the door pockets and foot wells. His wife always nagged about his sloppiness. God, I’m SO sick of picking up your socks in the family room. Put ‘em in the hamper, she would say.

Ed was sick of being surrounded by women. He had grown up with two sisters and an abusive, controlling mother. She would often come home late, angry and irritated, after spending twelve hours at the coat factory, hand-sewing on buttons. Ed would provoke his mother, and suffer through the beating, just so his sisters would avoid a similar fate. Now, he had to contend with his wife’s constant nit-picking and teenage daughter’s unruly behavior.
Ed reluctantly looked down at the illuminated fuel gauge and saw how close the line was to E. He started banging on the steering wheel and yelling “come on!” through gritted teeth. He didn’t want to stop at a gas station.
He was calculating how many miles he had left to go, when a state trooper’s resounding siren came from behind. Ed cursed whatever god or gods he believed in, and pulled over to the shoulder. The cop slowly walked to the Corolla and, upon reaching the door, shined a flashlight on Ed’s sweaty face. Ed rolled down the window and greeted the cop with a haughty grin.

“I clocked you at 77 in a 65. Why are you in such a hurry?”

“I’m sorry, officer, I wasn’t paying attention.” Ed took note of how young the cop was.

The officer panned his flashlight from the passenger seat to the back window, seeing the mess inside.

“Do you mind if I search your vehicle?”

“Yes, I do mind.”

The officer reached for the radio by his side, but stopped when he heard the pounding coming from the trunk. He met Ed’s eyes for one brief second before grabbing at the radio again, and Ed impulsively slapped the cop’s hand away. It was at this moment that Ed decided he was not going to jail tonight. He reached through the open window and grasped the cop’s collar, pulling him closer to the door.

“What do you think you’re doing?” The cop yelled in disbelief while fumbling for the gun in his belt.

Ed locked his right hand around the cop’s throat, wanting to choke the life from him. The officer had interrupted an important plan that he had been pondering for years, and Ed would make him pay. He squeezed until he heard the crunch of the officer’s windpipe, and immediately let go. The cop fell to the ground. Ed could hear him breathing harshly; he was still alive, but barely. He got out of his car, and looked around to make sure he didn’t see any other vehicles. Luckily, he was on a back road where few traveled, except for locals. Ed had arranged his scheme well.

He walked around to the back of his car, and opened the trunk. Inside was a woman with steel grey hair, face folded in wrinkles, wearing a pale blue nightgown and slippers. Her arms were covered with purple bruises and her head was slightly bleeding.

“You sumbitch – I’m gonna kill you -” She spat and tried to climb out of the trunk.

Ed gave his mother a punch to the ribs and she crumpled over on her side. He pushed her to the very back of the trunk; he had to make room. He went back to the cop, hoisted him up under the shoulders and dragged him across the ground. Ed struggled for a few seconds but managed to lift him into the trunk, and slammed it shut.

He got back in his car, started the engine, and continued down

“Perfect” by Nichole Hollingshead

She sits before the mirror
using paint upon her face
achieving the perfect eyes
and lips for her handsome date.
She spreads out all the magazines
across her wooden desk
picking out the aspects
of the people she likes best.
Hours pass, the clock ticks fast
from its post high on the wall
more color here, a smudge there
perfection is her goal.
When the task is finished
she looks in the mirror agape
and finds herself within a mask
then remembers– she has no date.

“Novel Excerpt” by Brittni Young

Life is a little complicated. I live through my dreams. This sounds weird, I know but, for me, it makes perfect sense. Going through the real world has become a chore and a necessity just so that I can have a stable future. Because of this, I don’t have any enjoyment in my life. That is, not until I discovered this free and beautiful place that my mind opened me up to. Throughout my first year and a half of college, I became overwhelmed with stress and I wanted to give up. After a while, I decided I needed to find some way to calm all of my anxieties. I did a little research at the library, since that’s where I work, to try and find some ways to relax my mind and body. I ended up finding different meditation styles. That same day I went shopping for the incense and candles they recommended to help with the relaxation process. That’s how this whole journey began.

During deep meditation, there’s a lapse of time between being fully conscious, and a point of almost deep sleep. If timed correctly, one can pull their “soul” out from the body to a plane that is essentially between dimensions. I don’t know if it is really the person’s soul that gets separated or not. That’s just how I would describe it. Usually, when I float out from my physical body, I can still look like myself, but I have a bright purple and hazy glow that surrounds me. I suppose everyone’s color is different. Since not everyone knows or can travel here, there are only a small number of people I’ve come across. I never had long conversations with them, but I did notice their colors. One girl had the most beautiful teal glow, and there was a man that had a grayish blue color around him. I talked with them for only a few minutes, then went on my way. The others were in passing, so I don’t remember much about them. I’m surprised I ran into anybody here considering how infinitely big this place is. The only person I see constantly is this man who says he is my guardian. He calls himself Kassian. He told me before, when I first started coming here, that every living soul has a guardian. However, not everybody is as spiritually connected to them as others. They are our protectors. He also relayed to me some rules that go along with this realm:

 

  1. You can’t visit/spy on anyone from the living world.

 

Apparently this is possible and weird. This is also a good way to piss off other people’s guardians, which you NEVER want to do. Kassian hasn’t told me what they can do to me if I was to anger them, but I can assume that it’s not good.

 

  1. Don’t go searching for dead, passed-on souls.

 

Kassian told me that, since we are in an in-between realm, we have the ability to see the living and the dead. Both are not acceptable. Searching will drive you mad and eventually will cut your connection with your physical body, trapping you there.

 

  1. Never stay for long periods of time.

 

I usually project myself when I go to bed at night until the time I get up in the morning. Kassian tells me that this might be pushing the limits a little, but I feel I can control myself, and he respects that. He’s probably the only one who has confidence and trust in me. My family always felt I wouldn’t succeed, so they never motivated me to do anything. That’s why I thought college would be the perfect escape from all the negativity. Doing this at night helps me to keep focused during the day and get through work, class, and homework.

These were the more important rules he went over with me, but I wasn’t overly concerned about them. This realm allows me to create places I could never visit in my real life. Anything my mind comes up with, I can create around me. Spying and looking for people could never compare to the joy I can create. Kassian and I have already made so many great memories here. My favorite has been the time we ventured to a beach with sand the colors of coral. The blues, yellows, purples, and hundreds of other colors were blindingly beautiful. The water was crystal clear as we swam with whales and dolphins without a need to breathe. My imagination has no limitations. Other times we just sit and talk, like today for instance. Unlike most people, Kassian listens to me. He shares his knowledge with me, and we could discuss topics for hours. Today, we were sitting underneath a large willow tree surrounded by nothing but sunflowers, my favorite.

“How is it that your name is Lilly, and yet your favorite flower is a sunflower?” Kassian asked me with wonder in his voice.

“You can’t predict me that easily Kassian,” I chuckled, “That’s the whole point of getting to know someone.”

“I’ve been your active guardian now for a year. I should know the simple things about you.” He sounded a little defeated.

“What do you mean by ‘active guardian’?” I was confused by this.

“All guardians,” he explained, “are assigned to protect someone’s soul. Most people don’t achieve the level of spirituality that you have, where they get to mentally connect with their guardians. This means that they protect them from afar, not being able to get to that next level with them. Essentially ‘inactive’. When you crossed that bridge over to this dimension, you created a bond with me that awoke my need to guide and teach you, as well as protect you. Even when you leave to return to the real world, I can still sense how you are feeling.”

As he explained this to me, I was getting even more curious. “What happens if the person you’re looking after dies?”

“Their soul goes on to the afterlife,” he said with a sad look in his eyes. “Other than you, I have had one other active connection. He was still such a young man and, unfortunately, his life ended sooner than it should have. His death was a hard one for me to bear. It is so fulfilling for us guardians to be able to teach you throughout your years but, when that bond is broken, it leaves us torn and incomplete. When you projected through for the first time, I felt whole again.” The golden hue of his aura brightened as he said this to me. His eyes were a blue-green color like the ocean. Staring into them, I could understand all the pain this must have caused him. I reached over to touch his cheek out of sympathy, and felt a warmth go through my arm and down my whole being.

“I’m so sorry.” I told him this with all of my heart. “You know I’m here for you just as much as you are for me.”

“I’m the guardian,” he chuckled. “I shouldn’t be needing any protecting. Thank you, though.” He smiled at me, and I couldn’t help but smile back. We talked for a while after that heavy conversation until it was time for me to go back to my boring life. In order for me to get back to my body, I needed to concentrate and visualize it in my head. Usually, that pulled me back in.

“Bye Kassian. I wish it was sooner rather than later,” I joked, and waved goodbye.

“Not too soon.” He warned. “Until next time, Lilly.” He smiled.

Within a few seconds, I was back in my bed staring at the blandness of my dorm room. I always felt so empty after returning. Here, there was no one to greet me or ask me how I felt. Picturing Kassian’s smile was the only thing that soothes this feeling in me. The college had put me in a single dorm room. I initially thought this would be peaceful for me, but now I get lonely. I mean, I talk and interact with classmates, but I wouldn’t consider them good friends. There is one girl that takes the time to talk to me, and I look to her for friendship. Her name is Beth, and she’s a sweet girl. She has one of those personalities that just attracts people, even a hermit like myself. I have at least half of my classes with her because we are going for the same degree: a Bachelors in Business. It’s not the most interesting career field, but it is the most beneficial.

Eventually, I got up out of bed to go get a shower. The hot water felt so good against my skin. This is my version of coffee. It wakes me up every morning. Stepping out of the shower, I stare at my reflection for a few minutes. Projecting every night has made me look well rested. My skin is fair and I can see every freckle. My hair, though, has been getting out of control. My tousled auburn hair is getting too long, and the waves are starting to tangle in amongst themselves. When I’m in the dream realm, I can present myself however I want. I never change anything, though. I would rather have Kassian see me the way I actually am. Realizing that I’m going to be late, I quickly got dressed and run out the door with my bag in hand. I saw Beth up ahead and rushed to try and catch up with her.

“Hey Lilly, good morning!” She was always good at being cheerful in the mornings. “Oh, did you manage to get the homework done for Mr. Hines’ class?”

“Yeah,” I coughed out my reply from being so out of breath. “I got it finished before I went to bed last night.”

“That’s good. He would probably be pissed if our class was late on homework again. In fact, we better hurry and get there before he kicks us out for being late.” She charged forward in a power walk that had me gasping to keep up. She walked with a determination that I don’t think I could ever have here. She noticed me lagging so she grabbed my wrist and pulled me along at her pace.

We made it with five minutes to spare, and Beth looked like she’d just won the race of a lifetime. We took our seats in the back, and waited for class to begin. Mr. Hines was a professor I didn’t enjoy. His monotone voice sent me on so many tangents of daydreaming that the look of boredom on my face probably offended him. He taught economics, which is the hardest class I have this semester.

I learn a lot about the subjects I have from the library, since I’m there five days a week for work. I don’t do much there. I usually take carts of books and put them back on the shelves where they belong. Any free time I have there, I just read whatever I can. Or I use some of that time to do homework so that I don’t have any to do over the weekends. The older ladies that I work with are the sweetest and just leave me be to do whatever I want, as long as I still do my job. It feels good to have a job that can help me out with school.

The hour and a half class seemed to drag on. It was pure torture. I broke out of my haze when I started to see that Beth and everyone else was packing up. We left and went on to the other classes for the day and, before I knew it, school was done for the day.

“Lilly, do you have time for a bite to eat before you go to work?” Beth asked. She had one of those irresistible smiles like Kassian has, and I didn’t have the heart to tell her no.

“Sure. Where do you want to go?” I was trying to think of all the places we could go that wasn’t too far from the library.

“How about the deli shop right down the street? I heard they have the best subs.” She looked at me expectantly.

“That sounds good to me.” I’m glad that I have Beth to get me out and do things. She really is a special person, and I guess gaining one great friend out of my college experience isn’t a total failure. We crossed the street and strolled down the block to Dillard’s Deli Delights, all the way trying to figure out what I wanted. I decided on a ham and cheese sub while Beth chose roast beef, both good choices in my opinion. We sat down, ate, and talked for about forty-five minutes until it was time for me to go. She waved goodbye and I watched as her bouncy blonde hair disappeared from view.

The library was only another five-minute walk. I pushed through the doors, said my greetings, punched my time card, and then grabbed my first cart of books. I got into my own zone as I carefully read the spines of each book and found their correct location. After a while, though, I started to get a nervous feeling. Strangely, out of nowhere. The feeling just kept getting worse as I went aisle to aisle until my body started to shake from tension.

Then, a voice came to my head in almost a whisper. Lilly…get out…way. I couldn’t quite make out what it was saying. Was that Kassian’s voice? I wasn’t staying focused. RUN! It screamed at me. By then, I could see the huge bookshelf in front of me quiver and shake so violently that it started to tip over top of me. I jumped out of the way, yet I was not quick enough. The bookshelf managed to catch my ankle and slammed down on it  hard. A man ran over to help me up and carry me to the front desk.

“What in the world happened!” Doloris screamed. She was one of the front desk receptionists that would sometimes help me look for books to read.

“The bookshelf just fell over. I don’t know why, though. Ouch! I think it twisted my ankle.” I flinched in pain, but I insisted to not go to the hospital. I didn’t have the money for all that. Doloris finally told me she would drive me back to my dorm. She helped me to her car and then we were on our way. After the short drive, she got me out of the car and into my room. She sat me on the bed and stacked pillows underneath my ankle, then she hurriedly went through to the small kitchen area.

“Doloris! It really is okay. You don’t have to fuss over me.” I pleaded with her to stop worrying.

“You listen here, missy,” she scolded as she came back with a pouch of ice and my school bag. “You’re going to accept my help and like it.” She gingerly placed the ice pack on my ankle and plopped my school bag on the floor with the exception of my phone. “Now, please just relax for the rest of the day and don’t move unless you need to use the toilet.” She handed me my phone along with the TV remote. “If you need ANYTHING please just give me a ring. I’ll be more than happy to come help.”

“Okay, thanks Doloris.” I sighed but gave her a small smile. She patted my head, then took her keys and left me in my room to think. What the hell just happened to me? Was that voice part of what Kassian was talking to me about, because of our strong mental connection? If that was him, he’s going to have a lot of explaining to do.

“Secrets” by Fatima Abdul-Aleem

There are secrets buried in this room, skeletons from long ago.

If you stay here past the time you’ve been permitted,

the ghost of yesterday introduces herself to you.

If you exit in a hurry, you just get to feel something watching,

a simple presence that is neither reassuring nor friendly.

 

There is something unhealthy behind this door,

a lurking witness to an age-old assault, perhaps even a murder.

The kindler of a fire that burned out of control, or is it the victim,

who simply can’t find sleep until her crime is solved?

 

There is an unseen force in here, this room is not right,

feel the cool breeze on your arms as you come to sit a bit.

Inhale the aroma of what initially smells of gardenia,

breathe it in more and then you notice it,

the aroma switches from that of a springtime morning to the stench of death.

 

This door that stands erect, separating the hidden things of the past,

wears the markings of a struggle and pain. There along the inside frame are scratches,

that of a person clawing desperately to freedom.

 

The walls inside this room resemble so much of the same,

nail prints left behind so that each visitor that is summoned sees the scripted message,

reliving that frightful moment through her eyes, as she pulls them into a world by the

means of a seduction.

 

She stays awake nights whistling to them, inciting people to come to her,

the thump of her cane as it knocks on the wooden floor,

encourages people to open up the door.

They enter thinking they are a guest, only to realize later, by the

sinister games she plays, that they are nothing more than a pond and sometimes her trophy.

 

There are secrets buried in this room, skeletons from long ago.

If you stay here well past the time you’ve been permitted,

the ghost of yesterday introduces herself to you.

If you exit in a hurry, you just get to feel something watching,

a simple presence that is neither reassuring nor friendly.

“Lackluster Woman” by Gabriella DiGiuseppe

Tears fell from her eyes like blood from a wound

Leaking effortlessly without concern,

Broken words spoken from her broken heart

Beating consistently with untampered aggression,

Hands shaking like a car that won’t quite start

Trembling with insecurity and uncertainty,

A flower that has not been given the water to grow,

Now lifeless and filled with a remorseful sorrow.

“Checkmate” by Tara Hahn

She was halfway between asleep and awake. She could hear the sounds but not comprehend them. The familiar breathing, in and out. Drifting slowly into slumber.

He was watching her sleep. He liked to do that sometimes. He made sure he would pretend otherwise if she woke up in the middle of the night.

She dreamt of a game that night. She was playing chess against some unknown opponent. She was the queen, and all the pieces she commanded.

He knew she was seeing others. He found evidence one night in her nightstand. He won’t tell anyone he knows that.

She had a few pawns up front. Some knights in the back and a rook on the side. Each piece moved strategically. Cautiously.

He hated himself. He knew he wasn’t good enough. He wasn’t rich or handsome. She deserved better.

She had lost a few pawns but her king was still safe. She had no doubts. She was going to win this game.

He moved slowly from the bed so as not to wake her. He tiptoed to the kitchen and brewed her favorite tea. He breathed in deeply, the steam scalding his nostrils.

She danced around the chessboard like a sugar plum fairy. The opponent was losing. How stupid her opponent was; such careless choices he made.

He trudged down the basement stairs and opened up the safe. A few important belongings stashed behind emergency cash. He made sure to leave the safe open. She didn’t know the combination.

She thought she was winning but her opponent had tricked her. The opponent schemed behind her back as she was confidently sending pawns to take down knights. She was tricked.

He pulled out a shoe box from the safe.

She made her last move.

He raised a gun to his temple.

She was cornered.

Checkmate.

“The Fall” by Tara Peck

Tissue-paper skin – translucent –

with long, black robes –

and one outstretched finger.

 

She whispered in my ear –

fairytale words – she smelled –

of the dirt and decay of death.

 

At first nothing – and then –

a tingling of sorts – vibrations –

her words ringed in my head.

 

And down I fell – rapidly –

down the rabbit hole –

into blackness and silence.